Some of my writings

 

 

The Dark Lonely Heart

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     It's been suggested he's too picky. It's been suggested she's the one. He's been told she's too wrong for him. He's been told she's the only one. For she's tells him I'm the one, yet he still doesn't feel love from anyone. He wonders if there is ever going to be someone in which to love and depend on. To dream of, till he's done.

 

     He awakes most days alone and sore, the pain from the yesterday and the night before. Once abusing the life he knew so well, only to find the solitude of a cold home, dark skies and a place like hell. A long life he lives, some days he wishes would end, trying so hard for the brave face and a smile but it's all just pretend.

 

     Every day off to work at five watching over the others, making sure they stay alive so they can go home to their wives, sisters and brothers. The danger of it all the medic he is, he's got the skills of his craft, incase it all goes sideways and kills. Praying it will stay just as it is, doing the job with passion and never remiss. Only a few will understand the strife in his life, However one day maybe a wife.

 

     Home time he goes in the deep dark rain, hobbling along the sidewalk always walking in pain. Thinking in thought the mind wonders and pleas, dreaming of a future and a life that was free. He thinks to himself “I wish I only had one, A Wife, A Queen, MaCushla”, a lone he wait for her to come.

 

     He's made his mistakes not all were his fault, if only others could see the train of his thoughts. But they can't see into the eyes of a man, striving to complete God's big plan. Before he was touched, she ripped his heart out, then lit the match fanning the flames, not even trying to put it out. Trust is now the issue that plagues his life, like a festering tumor it needs to be cut out with a knife.

 

     The dark lonely heart he lives all alone, the punishment he reigns on himself every night when he goes home. One day there will be someone he can love, and until then, he keeps asking for it from God and surviving with a grin.

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The LIFE of CHIVALRY

 

     It’s a hard thing to let a stranger into your life. They befriend you, there is an attraction, you start to date, it might starts to get serious, and that’s when it happened. It hits you in the face like a winter smack from an ice ball. The comfort zone has set in and being courteous and having any consideration are a non-factor now. Failure at its highest degree. Do you know why you see a couple in their 90s still holding hands? I’ll tell you. Because she still washes his clothes and makes his dinner after a day of him in the yard making her dream of a paradise always a work in motion and the reality in her eyes. He still holds the door for her as she walks in first, he holds her hand while they walk and always puts his body between the road and her, and never lets her carry any heavy lifting. He mans up and she takes care of him.

 

     It’s called “Chivalry” and it’s a CODE of conduct. For those who think it’s only for men, I would say that you are sadly mistaken and confused.

   

     Do you really think she wants to wash his dirty stinking clothes? NO! She does it because she loves him and it’s a TEAM effort. Do you really think he wants to spend his days manually working out back on his days off or retirement? NO! He does it because he loves her. They talk to each other, never keep secrets, and never ever lie, cheat or steal from one another.

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     It would be so perfect if the so called modern day human could or even would make an effort to understand this basic concept of life and relationships. All the same the modern day creature comforts seem the get in the way. It seems the next new bright and shiny thing is always getting in the way. New phones, new TVs, new apps, and yes new websites to find that other to do to you what the one your with has no clue what you want or need due to lack of any meaningful communication.

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     Years ago they didn’t toss anything away that was a little broken, they fixed it. A crack, a bruise, even missing parts. They fixed it. Not today or in the future. So many are always out looking for the next BBD {Bigger and Better Deal}. Yet it’s your eyes, stomach and hunger that are getting in the way of your life. If you don’t change it you will never feel full. You can call that “Emotional Obesity”. Your life is full but your heart feels empty, you hunger for the next. That’s’ the lie and that’s the trap that’s the life you are wasting.

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